- clean since 9/21/14
at some points, yes. it gets easier during the winter when i’m only training for sports, but during the spring and fall, it’s super hard to keep up with homework and just the basic workload from my classes AND have games or practice 6 days a week.
i’m so constantly stressed that i’ll wake up 2-4 times a night by panic attacks, and since i’ve started high school, i’ve stopped having dreams. I’ll miss days of school periodically because the accumulation of lack of sleep and stress will cause me to have a mental breakdown.
people think i handle sports and AP/advanced classes well, and i do sometimes, but they don’t know about how it is the rest of the time. I mean, i’ve done this all to myself, and it’s because i’m only trying to open up more opportunity for myself in the future, but sometimes i question if it’s worth it.